JDC55 *2

JDC55 wrote:

What Changed Me

This isn't for anyone to be feeling sorry for me. If you don't read this, then you won't understand me, and you won't know why I did the stuff I did.

As a Prestige Member I was mature. I had nothing to worry about, until I gained Anxiety. Personal things got to mind, and I watched things that I probably shouldn't have ever watched. I made dumb mistakes and filled my mind with stuff that made me stay up all night. I had no sleep. I thought of things so scary, I started becoming afraid of sleeping in the dark, so I stayed up until 7, so the sun could come up. I was moving away from my friends. I felt non-stop experiences that were so painful to think about. I was unhappy with myself for making these mistakes. This is the part where I lose my maturity and started trying to lighten myself with being, more fun and perverted. I said some nasty stuff to Spyder. I started being more open to people. And people started to hate me because of it. I started getting made fun of and bullied by GeNo members and outsiders. Direcly Panik and Cyko. Thats when I left GeNo. I still had love for GeNo. So much love that I put GeNo 1st on the Top 3 Clans list. People in BoZ then started bashing me with mean hurtful comments, Stryde put a fake quote of me on their website. Then I was known for being a BoZ hater which I wasn't. So everywhere I went, people started arguments with me, destined to pick fights with me. I had issues. I started to get angry. Thats when I started to just be rude towards everyone. That's when I started being immature. Mainly cause everyone despised me.

Nuking PCL/Threats

Kingman accidentally gave me his Discord account in a screenshot. I logged in once, but that was it until things got bad with me and the PCL Community. Lots of people made fun of me because my age. So I logged into Kingmans account and Nuked PCL. Me and Kill4Ever weren't on good terms, I msged him saying GeNo chat was next. Which was just to scare him. Same with Itami. I was angry at everyone.

But none of that is an excuse for what I did. Though I was going through a tough time, I still shouldn't have done any of that. But after my break, I feel like I have changed. I feel like a better person.

NOTE:

A long while ago, I was getting better, and I told everyone, that one day, I would forreal apply to GeNo one day. And someone told me to do it. So I felt confident of myself. This was never to copy anyone. Or get back at anyone. Anyone who I don't like, I've separated myself with. Including Painn.

K2Shape wrote:

JDC55 wrote:
Q1: There was many mistakes. But my biggest mistake was Nuking PCL Chat and threatening to do the same to GeNo , because I knew I wasn't going to do it. and I broke GeNo's trust.I had love for GeNo and that was the real only time that I felt hostile towards GeNo. Which was for some stupid members that made fun of me.

Q2: I really don't have a way to prove to you guys I've changed, but I've noticed myself treating others differently in some chats. Ask anybody I've talked to today, I've been pretty friendly to everyone.

Q3: GeNo has always been my home. When I joined GeNo, my true friends followed me here, making it more of a home when I left BoZ, then I made new friends, and I've always wanted to come back to GeNo.  I know that GeNo is the only Clan that I'm able to take serious with. And I miss all that.

The only way I can prove to you I've changed, is if you see me daily now. I've been more happy than ever. I've been cooperating with everyone lately, and I feel mature again. I even apologized to Painn and left him. And Panik being in this clan isn't going to stop me from applying. Panik doesn't like me and didn't like me from the start, but I know he has changed too. And if I don't mess with him, he won't mess with me.

Note : I already state myself I hate it when people add stupid additional details that hinders my eyesight from seeing the objective. Those marked in red was really not needed.
If you stated your objective clearly, then obviously people themselves will know how you really feel.


Q1 -= I asked for In general/overall. Not for a specific one.

Q1-1 -= was not answered. Or either you answered it indirectly, re-answer it again.

Q2 and Q2-1 += pretty fine.

Q3 -= But look at your app now. Not much people takes you seriously, and not much of your true friends are here. If I was you, I honestly wouldn't call this a home myself, neither would I want to come to here.

Q4 and Q4-1 -= Not answered

JDC55 wrote:How can you say I don't have any friends here? I don't know you neither do you know me. Not being rude, but you don't know exactly who my friends are, so how can you, someone I've never talked to in my life, say I don't have any friends here. I'm not going to sit here and let you tell me I don't have friends here, just because you don't want me in GeNo.

And yes forgot to answer Question 4.
Q4: Like I said in my application, I will be active on forums when needed, with new applications, and I will bring my all with my opinions if needed. As a member, there isn't much you can actually contribute. But I'll say this, I am an editor, I design logos, and edit Montages. I'm rather good at them. And I've stated that in my first real application here. And I was accepted. What more do you want me to say, as far as contributing?

And as far as Q1 Goes, I already answered.

VVannabe wrote:Basing on your answers...

- You're still bad tempered ( http://prntscr.com/edjmyk ) You just try to hide it till you won't get accepted (waste of time)

- This bs about how you couldn't sleep at night tired me (You had school so maybe you couldn't sleep but just once and this would be caused by emotions after nuking pcl)

- if you seriously think problem with sleeping is a problem then you should see how much you did hurt others that didn't even deserve this

Questions from hell:

- Let's speculate you get accepted.. What are you going to do now?

- What if you would get prestige? Would you try to hunt down people that bullied you?

- if someone would bullied you in GeNo then what would you do?

- Why didn't you apologize people you did hurt before applying to GeNo? Cuz ur too lazy? Let me go straight: cuz you think you say "sorry" here and everything is going to be fine?

- How would you work off things that caused problems to GeNo?

Donald Trump wrote:You lost all respect from me after you nuked PCL Chat. Your application was very good, but I don't believe any of it. I honestly don't remember the last time I saw you change.

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You say you "love" GeNo and that you have friends here but everything you've done suggests the exact opposite. Hypocrites are not welcome here.

Tugz wrote:
Despite everything that you say, it's all just words to me. We tend to be lenient and forgiving in order to give people the chance to do better with themselves in a safer and fun environment, but I can't bring myself to it with you. I haven't seen any actual change with you anywhere except here, and because of that your words hold no meaning. If you would like, there's always the option of creating a ban appeal in order to see us more often.

Fasho wrote:you say GeNo changed.

you don't think you changed any bit?


i've heard about you, its crazy I never knew you had that much in you.


what made you decide to reapply anyways after being banned by Tugz plenty of time... are you just here so u get access to GeNoi chat and nuke it?


im done talking, you better start answering these question ASAP or its AUTOMATIC DENAIL failure to answer questions.

GL you'll need it  

JDC55 wrote:
10. [Critical] Why do you wish to come back?: To be honest, GeNo was my real home until people like Panik came around. I notice I still have my real friends here and people that I hurt over the year of me being in GeNo. I feel like my old self. My [GeNo] self. I'm truly tired of acting ignorant and taking my stress and anger out on the community. I wanna feel at home again, with my real friends, and my real friends has always been here.