Panik *2

Nice app panik, but you stated that on Q10 that youve got alot of anger from the past. How can we be sure this time you will be calm?

By easing up on chat alot more. Crack some jokes, have a good time. My biggest issue was taking everything too seriously. I've let up since then.

I said it multiple times, I will say it again, I really did respect you. You gave me a chance to show my activity and my contribution to the clan.

As for the app, it's great and well made.
You did a lot of good things to GeNo, but the fact pissing me off, is that you left GeNo, because of some reason, matter of fact, you tried stealing GeNo members. You even tried making me come in VM, but as I stated before, GeNo is the last clan I'm joining, and I'm not leaving it, no matter what. Back then, I felt like you wanted to kinda kill GeNo. You kept asking members to come with you. And no, GeNo wasn't the only clan you tried stealing members, you did try getting members from YRN tho. That's not that much important, because it's not your past clan, but trying to get Members from your past clan, the clan you spent a lot of time, had much fun and friends...

If GeNo was closest to your heart, why you left it and tried making Members follow you leaving the clan?

Alot of pent up anger and irrational thinking. I think in a sick and twisted way, it showed that I did have GeNo close to my heart because I was trying to steal it's members.

But to get to your question, I was just in a bad place those days, I did alot of stupid things. I always tell people in real life that when you're angry, just back away from the situation that caused you to get pissed in the first place, and calm down before rejoining the environment. I didn't take my own advice, I regret my actions a lot from that day. I'd do alot to take it back, but I can't. I can only move forward and try to piece together my reputation again.

I think a lot of people were expecting this, especially after that group chat you made the other day. There's also been a lot of mixed feelings about letting you back in, considering what happened with you when I wasn't within the clan. Looking through old topics, I've seen multiple resignations from you and this doesn't speak for your loyalty in the slightest. Personally, I know being judged for a past you can't change hurts a lot, but in this case people will judge you for brutally leaving GeNo when it needed loyal and active members and they aren't going to pull punches.

I'll try not to judge you for your past, but in order for that to happen I need to know exactly what possessed you to accept the Itami invite if in your last application you said these things:

Qu1et wrote:10. [Critical] Why do you wish to come back?: Very simple. This (in my opinion) is my PB2/community home. There is no other place I would rather be. As soon as I left GeNo to create VM, I realized the immediate void in my virtual life. I've spent a total (combined in two stints) a year and 2 months in GeNociDe. I have unbelievable memories of both the old and new generation GeNo, these are my grass roots. Sure I was in a couple other clans before joining GeNo the first time but i spent about a month total in all those clans combined. As soon as I got accepted into this family, I knew there was something different. The vibe, the members, the environment. They all screamed success, this family that Tugz, Damnation, and all the members are trying so hard to maintain right now is something special and deserves to be fought for. I felt like a bitch for leaving almost right away, but I didn't know how to express it. Instead I expressed it in a way that told everyone that I despised GeNo, which couldn't be further from the truth. I love it here. I love you guys. The skepticism that each one of you will have reading this application is completely warranted, all I ask for in return, is an open mind.

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15. [Very Critical] In your own opinion, why should we accept you back into this clan?(From the clan's perspective): This seems like a trick question becomes it can make the applicant seem arrogant or cocky. However, my answer to you all would be this. I was one of the most active members of GeNo for a long time, I helped in every way I could to keep activity up when people weren't as active as they used to be. I've tried to implement many things, some of which did happen (trauma quiz, DOB blockade, stricter approach to questioning applications). I believe I can continue doing these things at a high level. I will also try to help in any way possible in GeNo expansion to other games (Me and Damnation had a good talk about this in PMs). I want to help GeNo reform. I want to be apart of the solution. Let me be the member I can be and give me the opportunity to grow as a person. There is nothing I want more then to be apart of GeNociDe again. I truly believe we're family, and while I did turn my back on family for a split second there, I know now how very wrong of me that was. I am deeply sorry, I mean every word that I've said. I ask of you, to be please accept this lost soul back into his home where he belongs. Let me right my wrong doings, let me continue to help make GeNo the pillar of this community. Let me be humble again for being given another chance. The choice is yours, I do hope I made a lasting impression with my family.

You say how you wanted to be in GeNo, but when things start getting hectic on your application, you void it and turn your back on the clan. What was going through your mind exactly? And in red, you say how you need GeNo to grow as a person but in your current application you say you're more mature. So you don't still need GeNo to mature yourself?

I turned back on my last application because I clearly saw that tensions were still high and rightfully so. It had only been a week since the whole VM disaster and members wanted no part of me. So for both our sakes I voided.


I was always thinking about reapplying. Then I got the invite from painn to join Itami. At that point I let myself believe that I really wasn't getting a second chance with GeNo and tried to move on. I'll say it again, I loved Itami, it's a very good clan. I just felt that GeNo was my first choice always and that I owed it to myself to try again.


As for needing GeNo to help me mature as a person, good catch and good question. Now as I think about it, I shouldn't need a clan to help me mature. I need to do that on my own, so if I were to try again, I'd already have gained steps to bettering myself.

So what are you going to do if it turns out tensions aren't lowered to what you'd like them to be?

Observe the situation. See if there's anything that can be done to smooth things over to extinguish the situation.

If it turns out that it's extreme, I'll ride it out, swallow my pride and reapply in a week.

I have no more questions as of now, good luck

LittleConqueror wrote:I have no more questions as of now, good luck

Same here no questions

There's a quote that says "Never bite the hand that feeds you" How do you think this applies to you?

Hibiki wrote:There's a quote that says "Never bite the hand that feeds you" How do you think this applies to you?

I think that quote means something along the lines of never be ungrateful or degrade the people who cared about you. If so, I did bite the hand the hand that feeds me. I regret it alot.

If all of a sudden you felt disrespected in GeNo, would you do the same thing as you ddid in the past.
(leaving out of anger)

No